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Tue, 28 Dec 2004 11:41:18 GMT

woot christmas was fun ^____________^

and will people please stop posting as anonymous, at least show who you are, so i can 'thank you for your name calling and questions and anything else you might post, i DO like knowing who i am talking to

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 11:10:03 GMT

♥

what is that anyhow?

never mind i get it now
i couldn't see it b4

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 11:09:48 GMT

♥

what is that anyhow?

never mind i get it now

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 11:09:32 GMT

♥

what is that anyhow?

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 11:09:09 GMT

&heart;

what is that anyhow?

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 02:37:19 GMT

UNTITLED
You dance around the subject,
Avoiding all the truths.
Your answers all dishonest,
With no substance, no proof.

You talk behind my back,
Still it reaches my ears.
It cuts so deep leaves permanant scarring,
Remaining all my years.

I step up quick to help you,
Try to lift you when your down.
I only try to help you,
Yet you throw me to the ground.

I get close,
You pull away.
My life the same,
Every Day.

I sit and listen,
To your worries and your woes.
I sit and listen,
Your complaints about your foes.

You want to be her,
She wants to be you.
If only you saw beneath,
If only you knew.

You try so hard,
To be an individual,
You past your present,
The truth still residual.

You try to be different,
You try to fit in.
Your each and every day,
A lie, a sin.

When its just us together,
You're so caring so kind.
When your with others,
So cruel with no mind.

You follow,
You're dragged.
Between hate and love,
My loyalties lie snagged.

You rip you tear,
Alone in your fears.
So quiet so deep,
So shallow your tears.

You leave me here,
Stranded alone.
You go off with them,
Like a dog after a bone.

Leading me on,
Lifting me high.
It'll last forever,
Still, the end is nigh.

Higher we go,
Further we fly.
You stop and drop me,
Tearing off my wings from so high.

I fall, I spiral,
Twist and turn.
You stand there mocking,
So long and I yearn.

To be once again,
Able to trust you.
Not thrown, not dropped,
Not hacked and hewn.

You ripped it out,
You threw it down.
You stomped you broke,
You crushed you frown.

Betrayed and alone,
In darkness I lie.
Battered and torn,
Dropped from so high.

My life seems pointless,
Much less than well spent.
I tried I failed,
To fit in, i got sent.

Up so high,
to br dropped to so low.
However I try,
The climb will be slow.

Again you just stand there,
When I would have helped.
So much pain, so much rejection,
I never felt.

I told you my secrets,
You fed me with lies.
I listened to your words,
Sugar coated poison, constant like flies.

Betrayed you left me,
Bleeding I stay.
Remembering all this forever,
Until my dying day...

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 11:22:06 GMT

i want that so bad...as soon as i learn guitar...

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 09:26:02 GMT

i am a lj-cut thingy

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 09:21:55 GMT

html ~~learnding~~learning

eh i have new icons

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 08:38:03 GMT

new icon...how interesting...[note sarcasm]

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 08:47:23 GMT

THIS JOURNAL IS ONLY OPEN FOR THE PURPOSE OF COMMENTING ON MY FRIENDS JOURNALS, DO NOT EXPECT ANY UPDATES.

birthday soon

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 08:02:56 GMT

...its my birthday in 8 days...-tired joy-woo-half hearted-o well you get that sometimes, my list so far of what i want is...

Wacom Graphire3 6x8" graphics tablet - $228
Black and White Platinum - $60(i get to be god in that and smite people)
Sim City 4 - $80(pretty much the same)
Van Helsing - $?(Kirk was choking on his popcorn and all i did was gently pat him on the back and watch the movie while hes still choking, heh)
...?
what else do i want? what dont i want...what am i going to get? i don't know, just as long as its not socks and undies...how boring would that be...-sigh-the first one is what i want the most :D lets just hope i get it...

bye

I am back

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 07:52:27 GMT

i am back, i got over lj for a while i had nothing to talk about, and still have nothing to talk about...o well i made some animations today the simplest being a ball that conituously bounces around the screen like so

i hope that works if it doesn't well too bad
so bored...the only good thing...11 days til my birthday.

WOO WEEKENDNESS

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 07:41:27 GMT

FINALLY its the weekend. another boring day of school even art was crap we sat in the library and looked for pictures!

Hmm so bored though...*sigh*...

Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

dont know which one that is but i took it anyway.

in my eyes i see you as mysterious and strange alot
of people wish they could know you better and
you are probably an artist? i really wish there
were more people like you out there..i really
do. (rate?)

in my eyes you are...(pics and different outcomes)
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same for this one

You are a blue dragon! You are reliable and
steady. You are known for being able to work
for long periods of time without tiring. You
are intelligent and very perceptive, and a good
judge of talent. You are good at finding
humans who would make good dragonriders. You
tend to set reasonable goals, and almost always
succeed at what you set out to do.

What color of Pernese dragon are you?
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phonix

!!What magick creature are you!!
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You are Feng-huang!

Mythological Background: The phoenix is the highest
and most revered force in the skies. It's
associated with power and prosperity, because
it is the king of all birds. Mars brings about
intense love, passion, and even aggression. It
is given the best traits of all beasts - its
different parts come from different animals.
The five mystical colours in its plume are
black, white, red, green and yellow. The
Phoenix is a very auspicious aspect in Chinese
mythological culture; and its symbol is used
only with royalty. Japanese Name: Suzaku

Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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Wolf ~ Wolves are also regarded as path finders
and teachers. Wolf is represented by the
constellation Sirius, the Dog.
In the Zuni tradition the Wolf symbolizes the
direction East.
Wolf's Wisdom Includes:

Facing the end of one's cycle with dignity and
courage

Death and rebirth

Spirit teaching

Guidance in dreams and meditations

Instinct linked with intelligence

Social and familial values

Outwitting enemies

Loyalty

Steadfastness

perseverance

Taking advantage of change

If you enjoy this quiz please rate, and I may do
some more!

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Animal Spirit Guides ~ Which One Calls To You?
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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Why do you cry?
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PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.

...first...

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 08:27:10 GMT

mmm i hate school its boring

My little sister too.

My brother also.

So many people